Once upon a time, there was a young woman who wrote every night for an hour and flew through any number of word count challenges month to month. She was unstoppable, skipping gleefully through 50ks, 90ks, and countless smaller 10k sprints throughout a month or a quarter. She wrote blogs with an ease like breathing.
She was also single, had no social life, and typically considered reading outside on her deck to be an outing.
Now, that same woman struggles to reach even 10k words in one month. “What happened??” you may cry, and the only thing she can tell you is, “Life.”
Now she has a fiancé, social commitments, a car, and a much less straightforward schedule.
Writing woes aside, most other areas of my life are on the upswing. We have a wedding venue, we’re getting ready to send out invitations, I have my dress picked out, I have an exciting full-time job prospect, and I am reigniting a more consistent devotional habit.
Life is good.
To be honest, I almost forgot to write a blog this month. Between two jobs and an attempted writing challenge, I have barely had time to unclench my jaw, let alone sit and think through an entire blog concept. In fact, when I opened my draft folder today, hoping I had left an unfinished piece in there, I had only written one line for November. One single line.
And I couldn’t even use it.
Right now, I’m typing this as basically a stream of consciousness as my fiancé makes Christmas cards across the desk from me. We put up the Christmas tree today and had leftover pecan pie with coffee. Yesterday I found a CD by the Carpenters in a small record store that had their versions of classic holiday songs, and we listened to it on the way to church this morning.
Even though I don’t have the same mental space I once did for writing hours and hours at a time in my personal projects, I have faith I will regain that, in one form or another. Just not this season.
Instead, I’m going to end this unstructured little mess of a blog, kiss my dearest love, and start filling out Christmas cards.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season so far, and thank you for reading.